Happy Labor Day!
It is Monday- I got back from the wedding of one of my best friends Kathy yesterday night. It was so much fun to A. get out of this town and B. to see my friends. I got to Hastings, MN on Thursday at 4 and spent the rest of the night hauling my crap into the hotel we stayed at and getting ready for the bachelorette night. We got dressed and finally headed out at 11. I made her take blow job shots and drink through penis straws. It wasn't what I would do if we had it at a place I knew but I made do. We had fun and stayed out until 4:30. The next two days went by so fast that right now I feel like I have whiplash. I got slightly weepy three times. The final time was when I said goodbye to my friend the new Mrs. We both started to cry like babies. She is my first close friend to get married. I had so much fun at the wedding, reception and dance. I actually had an out of body experience. I was so happy, all worries, fears, anxiety were lifted from my shoulders. I talked and danced and smiled. I want that feeling again. Of course most people would say it was the alcohol that created that feeling- but I assure you I felt that way all day. The alcohol was nice though. The last time I felt that way was on my birthday this July. Just a feeling of being so comfortable with your body and your emotions that you didn't have to try to be something different than who you are. I thought I could only be that way with the right person, but from this last weekend I finally discovered that like Dorothy I didn't need the shoes I always had the power to get home. Deep, I know. Not to say that I don't want just one person being around when I feel that way and being a main reason for the good feeling, but it is very reassuring to know that I don't have to be waiting for that guy to show up. Plus I know that I am not ready for that person anyway. Not that the thought of getting married frightens me, I think that when you know you know for sure. I have never told any man I love them before, so maybe I will just work on that goal- find someone to love. I am getting tired of like though- I think that there is a certain age when you want to act like a woman. I realized this weekend that I have reached that point. Of course that changes from day to day, but I think I did a good impression of a grown-up.

As a side note- I went to Target when I was in Hastings and I found something that I love. I needed a new purse. I was looking through the racks and I discovered the coolest patent idea ever. A purse with an automatic light pointed into the purse. Anyone reading this man or woman should rush to a local Target and buy at least one.

I am sure I will share more thoughts from the wedding, but I'm tired now so I think that I am going to bed for the night. But I have to share that all my tanning this summer paid off- I was the tannest person in the wedding party and possibly the wedding. Yay! for me!