I am getting really extremely nervous about the upcoming wedding of my college roommate this weekend. I am in it, not even the maid of honor, just a plain old bridesmaid, but I am stressing it big time. I had the worst dream this morning. It took place in a mall, most of my horrible events in life take place in a mall, and I rush to the wedding with about 30 minutes before it starts. As I arrive I realize that I had missed all the photos- oops! I also realize that I don't have the shawl for the dress, so I go back across the mall to retrieve it. As I am heading back to the mall chapel I get terribly lost. I try to find my way out of the mall, and while I am frantically going through doors this big watch flashes before my face counting down the minutes left- 10, then 8, and etc. I find a door and start running on the sidewalk looking for the entrance closest to the chapel. But I am lost and frantic- and then I wake up. I almost cried when I woke up. I now realize that as far away as the possibility is- I can never have a traditional wedding (or maybe I should just never go to a mall again?) I would be crazy come the day of. I mean Hello! I can't even handle this wedding. I am going to have fun this weekend- no matter what happens- I have made this pledge to myself. It just sucks that the wedding just happens to take place when the gas is so damn expensive. I more than likely will have some fucked up dreams tonight- so maybe I will report that one as well.