I get the worst aunt of the month award. Not only do I contribute to her getting a bloody nose yesterday, but today I forgot to pick her up from school! I feel really bad just thinking about it, the only thing that makes it better is that she's not my actual child. So I feel like shit today.

There is something that I need to get off my chest. I know that I will never understand guys, but just when I think I do, they do something completely fucked up again. As a girl I function differently I guess. For example, if I met someone from messenger and didn't even want to talk to them as a friend anymore afterwards, then I would probably not talk to the person anymore or just tell them I didn't want to talk anymore. Not guys apparently- first they leave messages like 'Sorry you had to leave so soon, I was nervous' and then 'I think your('re) very pretty'. It made me scratch my head especially when the same person avoids me on messenger for the next um... four or so days. I mean,, what the fuck is that all about?? Just for future reference guys- don't say words you don't mean. It must be the same brain thing that makes guys say I love you during sex when they don't mean it. Then again- it might be like me writing this. I might wish I hadn't? Oh well... it was just something that has confused me for the past couple of days. God, it still doesn't make sense to me- well if someone has the answer please tell me. Come on Rebekah- give me your insight- ask Jamie even.

I always get inspired to do things in the early morning- I finally brought books to Goodwill tonight at midnight. They had been sitting in a box downstairs for about um... 5 months. Tomorrow I'm going to bring the other box that has the encyclopedias from 1990. I also got some CDs back from my sister today- it has been almost a year since I let her borrow them. In fact I'm listening to them now- yippy!