Life is just going so fast these days.

Drive, Work, Drive, Eat, Watch Sex and the City, Sleep- and repeat cycle- that is my life. I have been able to fit other things in such as more television programs and of course more eating, but my life is starting to take that boring routine kind of feel. Watching the show has made me so want to start having sex- and at the same time run screaming in the other direction from every guy I encounter. Speaking of encountering, I haven't heard from a friend of mine in over two months- is that a sign- why can't guys be friends with a woman that they flirted with. I had the best relationship with a guy- mind you it was over im- and I meet him- things go really good- we keep talking- I meet him again- things start to go not so good- and after a while I don't hear a peep from him. I just don't understand what it is about me that makes guys run away from even friendship- it has always been that way. Is it just me or all women- is When Harry Met Sally right- can men and women not be friends without the sex thing getting in the way? Can they not be friends with me because they aren't attracted to me? I just don't get it. I really liked this guy- he was smart and funny. Another thing he had in common with all guys I connect mentally with is that he was extremely skinny- I just don't know why I am attracted to those guys. I would really like a big teddy bear of a guy- but my mind connects with guys that were tortured in high school because of how small they were. It blows my mind.

It is not even midnight and I am already yawning up a storm. It's sad really. I didn't go out this weekend. I am having a sleepover with my niece tonight. I should probably comment on Survivor- the new twist was obviously coming- and only time will tell how the tribes react to the new-old tribe members. I am sure it just knocked the socks of some Survivor watchers, but I was prepared when the old members came back for revenge. How badly would that have been to keep it secret from the media during the interview day after they originally got kicked out- knowing that the twist was coming and having to keep silent about it, and make sure not to let it slip. I think that is different than the other people on Survivor- those people really did go and splurge on food right away and let go of the game- but the people who are going back in the game kept living it and had to pretend that they didn't until now. Anyway.. still not sure how the series is going to end, and that makes it exciting.