Should I be saying this?

Hey guys-
I'm at my friend Rebekah's right now- hiding out from life in general. I have a 'situation' at work- born out of my own idiot past. I am on an administrative leave for a couple days. I didn't do anything completely sick or mean or criminal(?), but I did do something stupid about three years ago during my interview that I finally corrected yesterday. I have been crying almost nonstop the last three or so days. I might find out today what my future is going to be? I almost hope I get fired, then I can move on with my life. Anyway- I probably shouldn't be writing about this, because A. it is really private stuff and B. it makes me sound like a really terrible person, but anyway I did so... If anyone stumbles upon this blog please pray for me, really quick because I need the prayers.