Happy Holidays

I'm up in Brookings on a Wednesday night- I have a funeral to go to tomorrow. An older relative of mine died on Christmas- so I am taking off tomorrow and going with my family. It has been a long time since I've gone to a funeral- I hope I don't freak out. This last weekend was horrendous- I had complete Hulk-like PMS towards my family on Christmas. It is amazing knowing that you are acting completely insane, and still not having any control over it. So on Christmas night I drove off in a huff- and then I find out that a relative died- so then I totally feel like a creep. It is times like that when I wish I was a guy- imagine not having those extreme emotions- or like a lot of guys- no emotions!

I'm watching the Ginger episode of South Park- it is hilarious. Still haven't seen RENT yet- it is at the 3 dollar theater. It better stay for a couple of weeks- because I will see it on the big screen- damn it!

Anyway- other than that my life is boring- per usual

It's Beginning to Look a lot like.....

Hello- I just got back from a stay at a local hotel- my niece had her 9th B-day party yesterday and I was asked to stay with them overnight. It was my sister and my two nieces. I slept in one bed with Taylor and my sister slept in the other bed with Samantha. My sister snored so loud and had so many different snores that I barely slept all night. It was terrible. I do not enjoy sleeping with other people. Anyway I'm trying to perk up, but I don't think that is going to happen. I'm sticking around town because tonight is the Survivor finale and I thought I would watch it with my mom. I had to go somewhere this last Thursday so I didn't see that last episode.

The last couple of weeks have been very tiring. I got sick with a stomach flu on Thanksgiving weekend and I had planned to go to RENT with my sister. That didn't happen. Then last weekend my friend Rebekah came up to SF on Friday and we came out to Brookings Saturday. We totally acted like we did 3 years ago- got completely plastered and I ended up crying. Made me feel like I was still in college. I was flirting with this guy and I thought it was going well, but then he basically bolted it was like a switch was flipped- it was strange- and it didn't help my self-esteem. Anyway Rebekah threw up the whole next day- and I felt just fine and dandy- I credit the break down I had on the way home. It was fun- I got to talk to grown-ups and act young- how do you beat that?

Anyway- we were going to see if we could go to RENT this weekend, but it is gone already. Crap! Oh- I am starting to regret coloring my hair black- seeing as it doesn't wash out and I can't dye over it. How do I know that you might ask- because I tried to- and it looks terrible- it colored my roots so now I have red roots and black hair- really klassy (yes with a k).

I haven't gotten out my decoration yet- mainly because I'm lazy- but also due to the fact that I haven't been home very much in the last three weeks. Okay- I'm practically falling alseep right now- so bye- Enjoy the Holidays.

Mean Girls

I am watching the special features on Mean Girls- it is about the book that inspired it- Queen Bees and Wannabees. It is very interesting- and I might have to look into the program that the author came up with- The Empower Program. I am so glad I bought it- it was 6 bucks so I thought- eh- I enjoyed it when I first saw it. Rosalind Wiseman is awesome. Anyway...

Yesterday I couldn't remember how old I was- I actually had to figure it out by writing it down. I was saying 26- but it didn't seem right- and it wasn't- I'm an old bitch- 27! It sucked- and since my family has a history of dementia- it was a little scary.

I went to Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire today- It was great- of course- but I sat in the side seats and my neck feels sore from looking over at the screen. As I was walking out I mentioned to my sister as I was looking at all the twenty-something guys in groups that were still in the theater- "Why can't I find someone- I mean look at all the guys that are "geeks"- I'm a geek" If only I knew.

My sister is done with her high pressure job this next week- and to celebrate we are going to go to RENT- I am so pumped. I have only waited for ten years for it to become a movie. I have seen a performance of it- so it should be interesting to see how it is translated to film. I move Anthony Rapp- so I am so excited.

Gilmore Girls and Lost have both been kick ass these last couple of weeks. I don't know if I mentioned Jess's return to GG already- but it was great- and thank the stars above he looked very good- and I never thought he was very attractive before. Please, have Rory change her mind and love Jess again- PLEASE!

I don't know if I am the only one but my place occasionally gets a little unorganized (alright- damn right messy and sloppy). Yesterday I cleaned it totally and when I woke up this morning it felt like Christmas morning- I couldn't wait to run out and soak up my beautiful apartment. It will also be great going home tonight and walking into Heaven on Earth.

One big reason why my aparment get a little crazy is because I have been making jewelry a lot- and I mean a lot of it. I have thought about trying to bring it to a consignment shop- but I like what I make too much- thus my overwhelming amount of crap that leads to the mess. Anyway- I am going to get going. Bye

Black Magic Woman

I totally feel like a witch- mainly because I colored my hair black- so black it looks blue in a certain light. I really don't know what came over me, but I kind of like it. I just needed a change. I kind of feel strange admitting it but my first thought when I looked at myself after putting on my make-up was I look a little like Catherine Zeta Jones- then I said alright maybe closer to Delta Burke. And that is the first thing that my mom said when she saw me, and my sister. I should be proud to look even slightly similiar- she was and is very pretty (yes I have decided to see it as a compliment). Anyway-I really didn't want to come up to Brookings so soon, but I had made a promise to see my niece's first cheerleader competition- and I forgot it was this weekend.

I'm leaving soon to go back home- because I am tired of sleeping in other beds on the weekend- I just want to go home and sleep the day away. Wish me luck at work on Monday- hopefully I won't scare all the kids.

Lost

Alright- I'm totally hooked on the show Lost now- so hooked that I went and bought the first season on DVD. I had seen bits and pieces of the show before, but since I hadn't seen all of the episodes I didn't want to start watching- well now that I am all caught up- I love it. Hurley, Charlie, and Sawyer are my favorites- I just love how it is written.

Anyhow- I left Fairmont this afternoon and then stopped briefly in SF and now I am in good old Brookings. I took off Monday and Tuesday just to be able to celebrate Halloween with my nieces without rushing back for work. I had a good time last night- I dressed in a medieval princess costume- it was gaudy and fantastic. I was buzzing, but not drunk. I was the only single person there- unless you count the 10 month-old that was there with his parents. However- it did make staying single sound better and better- because almost every couple was bickering all night long. There was almost a fist fight over a game we were playing.

Two weeks ago- my friends were up in SF- and we went out on the town. We got really drunk and I made my friend ask questions about a guy I used to know at his apparently former place of employment. I am so glad that I had her do that because now I don't have to wonder about the person anymore. He's not dead- he hasn't moved- he just decided to stop talking to me. Oh well....

I am going to go up and paint pumpkins with my nieces- Taa Ta

Hey!

I'm up in Fairmont visiting my friends for a Halloween party- it's going to be great! I'm going to be a princess- which sounds fun but will most likely look like a drag queen version of a princess. I already put on my fake nails and I feel so ladylike. Anyway- maybe I'll blog later

Three Wishes

I came home tonight for my niece's second birthday and to watch the NBC reality show 'Three Wishes' with my family. In between commercials we managed to sneak in birthday things like blowing out the candles and opening presents. It was really good, the show that is. It made my sister and me cry and cry. It was everything a good reality show should be- without the annoying Ty Pennington. Hell- I don't like Amy Grant, but even I could stomach her for two hours. I really think that Brookings is a great place to live- I really do want to move back here eventually- I am a born and raised Brookings citizen.

Anyway- life has been eh for the last month or so- I can't even remember all the things I've done. I can think of some movies I've gone to- The Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants, Herbie Fully Loaded, The 40-year-old Virgin, Just Like Heaven and probably some other ones. I'm possibly going to go to In Her Shoes tomorrow because I love Jennifer Wiener books. She is awesome- and so down to earth- I love reading her blog. I'm also going to go to Red Eye at the 3 dollar theatre- I hope nobody shoots me- this is funny if you know that recently something happened at the theatre- but lucky for me I would never go to Dukes of Hazard.

Damn- I'm crying again- my parents are downstairs watching Three Wishes because my dad wasn't able to watch it the first time. The family from New Orleans and the family with the sick dad- Waaaaaaa! Although my family is so mean that we kept making jokes the whole time we watched it.

I went crazy and cut my hair a month ago- I gave myself bangs. Well then they got long and were in my eyes so last night I went completly nuts and wacked them really short- like those girls that work at small coffee houses (the girls that are always so much cooler than you. ) So I am determined to pretend that I like how my hair looks- because confidence is key. Anyway I'm tired I feel like I lived at work this week. I get to hang out with my nieces tomorrow and then I'm going to go back home and sleep, sleep and sleep some more. Night night

Summer Vacation

I am starting my real one and only summer vacation today- I get the weekend and Monday and Tuesday off and I'm not doing much of anything (at least today). I am going to watch the girls Monday and Tuesday because my youngest niece's child care provider just found out she has breast cancer- scary. Anyway I had the days off so I told my sister I could watch them. They are going to come up to SF and we are going to pal around there.

I went out last night with my friends Rebekah and Jamie- briefly hitting the 'hotspots' in Brookings- it was interesting. I really haven't been out there for a long long time so there were a lot of differences that I hadn't seen. Like a bar that the owners say has been there for almost two years that I didn't know about. Anyway I hung out with them for a while and then I swung by Hy-Vee and about got lost because it was all remodeled. Nothing sucks worse than your hometown changing behind your back.

Anyway I was going to write last weekend but I had no cookies and was too tired to find them. I had a horrible experience at a SF 'hotspot' last Saturday. It was a new hip dance club and it sucked, nobody was dancing and the music was on so myself and my co-worker friends went out on the floor and I admit I danced like a dork- for fun- not seriously. Well some thirty-something man comes up and starts dancing by me. I had noticed that he was at a table that had been looking at our table and laughing- it was full of couples. After dancing a little bit the guy leans in and says, "I was bet five dollars to come and dance with you." Anyway I said "Thank you that makes me feel really special" and proceeded to ignore him and keep dancing. I told myself that I wasn't going to make that known but... frankly that is one of the reasons that I don't like people and why the idea of becoming a cat lady doesn't sound so bad. Anyway my night didn't get any better- we ended up leaving and going to Bucks (puke) where we bumped into a group of co-workers who snubbed us. So life seemed really crappy last weekend. The thing I have learned is that if you act confident you can get through the little humiliating moments- did I cry a little afterwards, well duh- I'm a girl of course I did- but I refuse to let people see me cry when they hurt me. Well this entry sure got down in the dumps- but I am sure to have a good vacation.

Jude Did a Bad Bad Thing...

I know what he did was wrong wrong wrong- but damn I wish I was that nanny. Jude Law is so pretty and it is easy for the public to forgive beautiful people. Everytime I think about it I feel a little sick because it makes me feel for his kids (I really don't feel sorry for his fiancee) and at the same time it totally sounds like a fun fantasy. But that is all it should be a fantasy. He's obviously not a very sane person.

On to tamer things- I went up to Wisconsin with my parents and my niece Taylor. I read most of Harry Potter on the way to and back. We went for a family reunion and it was pretty much a crap fest. It was my father's side and I was never very close to them- ever. This is how kid friendly the event was- we went to a wineary. Taylor and I went on the tour and it ended with a tasting- and I got tipsy and grumpy because I drank on an empty stomach. Here is a cute little note- my niece said to my sister, "Here is an interesting fact about wine. Do you know what they make wine with?" She was quite amazed that my sister knew- (it's grapes by the way- haha)

I was lucky that I didn't go ass over teakettle on the way back to the car. So I am forever going to remember this last weekend as the one I got to read Harry Potter- sad. I am going to probably go to Wedding Crashers with my momma tonight- it should be fun.

Ompa-loompa overload

Hey- I just came to drop Taylor off after a drive-in sleepover last night. The line up was the new Charlie and the Chocolate Factory and The Fantastic Four. It was pretty good at least the first movie. I could write a novel on what I did and didn't enjoy about it, as far as comparing it to Willy Wonka and the Chocolate Factory, but I won't. The main thing I missed was the Ooma Loompas. I also didn't care that they actually showed that the children made it out alive- I always liked the mystery of their outcomes. Anyway- it was fun- we stayed up until 2. Taylor actually slept until 11 this morning- I had to wake her up- which was strange because I usually had to be dragged out by her.
Recently I watched Resevoir Dogs for the first time and I enjoyed it- truth is the only Quentin movie I really don't care for is Pulp Fiction. I also went to Sin City the other night- and it was interesting. It was hard to see Rory Gilmore as a prostitute. I did enjoy it though- which worries me.

And yes I am the ultimate geek- I bought the new Harry Potter yesterday. I was even going to go to Wal-Mart at a little after midnight but I was so freaking tired that I just fell asleep. I have read exactly 2 pages of it. I still need to finish my Secret Life of Bees before I read the Potter book. Anyway- I'm turning 27 on Wednesday and I have a family reunion this next weekend. Wish me well.

Sunday Bloody Sunday

I wrote that title because I didn't know what else to type in. I'm up in Brookings because it is the Arts Festival weekend. I came up today and every time I go to the festival I always wonder why I came. I really hate everything it is about. The only time I think it would be fun to go is if I had someone to bring that had never gone to the thing. Frankly I only went this year for a taco bag- what you may ask is a taco bag- well I'll tell you. It is taco fixings in a Frito bag- a small sack lunch sized one. It is ultimate food at the festival for me. I probably talked about this last year, but I don't care.... I went with my mother this morning while she filled out an application for a new reality show hosted by Amy Grant called Three Wishes- yes I know- sad. Anyway I filled out an application while I waited with her- just to see what I would wish. Mainly everything that I would wish for would be humiliating to talk about on television or here for that matter. I wish for everything that a single, almost (but not quite) 27 year old woman could wish for. But my life would be even more pathetic on film than Britney and her boy toy. I have seen an abundance of movies recently- all older movies because I am a cheap bitch. I saw Fever Pitch and I enjoyed it, Jimmy Fallon can be funny sometimes- truthfully! I also went to House of Wax a couple of weeks ago- and I was completely outraged when a couple of women brought a 3 or 4 year old to it and a baby. It made me so sick I was expecting the kid to start crying or the women to realize that the movie was a little too violent for the kid- but no.... I was more frightened than the kid was- which was terrifying- what else must this kid see?

Anyway- I got to see my old college friends last weekend. I hadn't seen them for a while and we had a blast hanging out in good old Mitchell, home of the Corn Palace. I still haven't gone to War of the Worlds or Batman Begins- and I think that by the time I do Tom and Katie will have been married, divorced and on to the next one. Life is going good- I actually took naps this week after work- two days in a row. I was so out of it when I woke up, especially when I slept in my hard contacts.

Anyway- not long before I am 27- I will be twenty seven. An adult age- 27- I can't believe it. I still get disgusted when people I graduated are having children- I can't be that old- I guess I am the odd one- they are in their mid twenties. Exactly the age when everyone is SUPPOSED to have children- it is just too weird. Anyway I am handling it- I will be fine.

I wish life was like an 80's movie

I got all sentimental about 80s movies this weekend mainly because of watching most of VH1's 100 best Child Stars. The whole cast of Stand By Me was on it- I think I just didn't see River Phoenix and on Friday I watched the movie. Then just for kicks I watched Ferris Bueller's Day Off on Saturday while I was cleaning. I wish that life would have moments like the parade scene. I wish everybody would just be able to dance and sing along and be happy- I love that scene.

I also rented a couple of movies. I rented Shaun of the Dead, and then I rented a crappy one that had Lauren Graham in it- Number 13 or Lucky 13- something shitty like that. It sucked. I'm planning on eventually watching Shaun of the Dead. I'm also pretty psyched out about the Land of the Dead coming out. I'll have to go to it in the theatres.

I'm tired the weekends go by too fast and I took no vacation days.

Hey! Up in Min-a-sota

I decided to get away from SF and Brookings this weekend and visit my good friend Rebekah and her husband Jamie. It is nice to get away from everything and just relax. It makes you appreciate your life as well-- with the whole homesickness thing. I really haven't done much this week, work, cleaning my apartment, sleeping and then back to work.

I would like to say that I have completely lost any 'love' I ever had for Tom Cruise- I frankly find him an arrogant asshole. I think he should just shut up talking about things that he isn't professionally involved in. The whole Katie Holmes thing aside- now he is talking smack about Brooke Shields and the fact that she had to use anti-depressants. If you want to talk smack then do a blog! I do it here and it's great and fairly anonymous. I was pretty hyped for War of the Worlds but I'm not so sure now.

Gone to the Dark Side I have

I went to Star Wars III yesterday- and I loved it. I was a little apprehensive about going, but I'm glad I did. It cleared up all the little questions that were out there. I try to not get too jazzed up about it because well then I'd for sure be a geek- alright I admit it I am....

I got out of work very early- and I headed up to Brookings- got the niece and went to Madagascar. It was pretty good- enjoyable entertainment for child and adult. I may even go to Star Wars with my sister tomorrow... talk about movie overload. Anyway- I am forced to become a morning person this summer- I usually work afternoon or late morning hours, but I am going in at 8 for the summer while a coworker is on maternity leave. I don't like the idea of enjoying going to bed early and waking up early- yuck!

Jersey Girl

I am up for my mom's birthday and my parent's anniversary- yes my mom got married on her birthday- I would never do that. Anyway- it is a gorgeous day outside and I just want to fold this day up and put it in my pocket. I got a phone call from my niece last night that totally shocked me. They got a kitten! My sister hates anything that has fur- so for her to get a kitten was the last thing I thought could happen. I was so freakin' excited last night I couldn't wait to see the kitty. She is mainly white with a lite goldish brown on her head. She is really cute- however not as cute as my Hella was and is. Taylor is sitting right beside me and elbowed me as she read the last sentence. I have a little bit of 'crazy, scary cat lady' going through me when I am with the kitty- who is named Jersey by my niece. I suggested the name Pink so that they could dye her with KoolAid- but they weren't down with that.

Anyhoo--- I must again talk about how happy I was that Tom won on Survivor. I also bought the first season of Scrubs on DVD this week- I'm ill what can I say....

My niece is driving me nuts about going to Disney Channel.com- yuck! Ouch! She did it again!

Rat Bastard

I had a whole grand thing typed up about how great it was that Tom won- and something happened. Anyway- yay for Tom- boo for Ian- have a great week I'm out!

Sunday blues

My weekend has flown by so fast it is disgusting. I went out for a work get together on Friday night and I was slightly buzzing and I talked and talked and made an ass out of myself- it was great. The next day I had my family come up and we went to a relative's high school graduation party. Then I had my niece spend the night and we ran all over town this morning and afternoon. I'm going to break down the "world" news that happened this week.

I couldn't believe the news that Kenny Chesney and Renee Zelweiger got married. It was too too weird. In fact, I still can't believe it- huh? I am going to give it 18 months- unless she gets pregnant then maybe 20 months. It would probably be hard for her to get pregnant though since she doesn't have any fat on her body.

The finale to Amazing Race was good- I was happy that Uchenna and Joyce won- I still wanted Rahb and Ambur to win. (I know that's not how they spell them). I was pretty sure that they would, but oh well....

The finale to Survivor is on tonight and I am up to watch it with my mom- I hope that Tom or Ian win. It will probably be Jen or Katie and I won't be happy.

I watched Closer last week- strange- I enjoyed it, but mainly because it was so sexual. Oh and don't forget Jude Law- he is a total siren. I might even watch Alfie just because he is so yummy. I also watched Lemony Snicket's A Series of Unfortunate Events. It was alright- I think Jim Carrey can be funny in anything though- I mean... look at Me, Myself, and Irene- that blew.

I have got to go because I am going to watch Survivor and eat some meatloaf.

Sideways Smideways

Oh my God I'm back again-
I was going to come up with a creative lead in to the Katie Holmes and Tom Cruise thing- but I was too sickened to come up with anything. In my mind I hear conversations between them and I think that that is why I am particularly annoyed by the 'romance'. Everytime I start watching Dawson's Creek I get so bothered by her voice- and he is just as bad. Wow- I had a real break through just now. 'Dawson I like you but I love Pacey' and then I hear 'You complete me/Show me the money!' no wonder I am sickened by it.(I couldn't come up with actual dialogue from the show- because I didn't want to)

Anyway--I also saw Sideways a couple weeks ago and I was not impressed. I love Paul Giamotti (sorry about spelling) but I thought this was his least impressive movie. The storyline is something I've seen a lot of in real life, admittedly with new wine information. I have seen it happen tons of time where a guy will have everything going for him but still have that desire to fuck it up by fucking. Anyway, maybe I missed something... but I don't think so.

My friend Dayna had to have a trip to SD a couple weeks ago because of a funeral- and selfish me I was so happy to see her. She came up to Mitchell Monday at 9:30 PM and left at 2:30PM on Tuesday. We went out to the bar at 11:00 PM and got back to my apartment at 6:30 AM -we went to the Brickhouse and ended up going out for a poker game after it closed with the employees. I was dee-runk- and man it sucked- I felt so bad Tuesday. I wish I could have had more time to see her- but I'm saving up my money for Las Vegas!

I 'm going to go- later

Confessions of a Thriftaholic

Why do I go to thrift shops? I just buy stuff I really don't need, same with any of my buying I suppose except I spend less... Anyway I really need to stop buying furniture though because I think I have enough to fill a small house. I just love fixing things up and it is so easy to slap on a coat of paint and make it pretty. Last weekend I ended up getting a unit for my closet sized bathroom- one that goes over the toilet tank and then I got a medium sized shelf with drawers that I painted and put on top of a dresser- it only cost fifteen dollars.

Another weakness that I have at thrift shops is books- I love getting books- I have so many just sitting on my shelfs that it is sickening. I was proud of getting 'The True and Outstanding Adventures of the Hunt sisters' for 99 cents at Savers. I'm reading it now and it is pretty good- I am sure I will be balling soon.

I need to get going back to SF tonight- sounds like there is some thunder going on....!

I do need to mention how great The Amazing Race and Survivor have been. Love, love, love Rob- at least on the show as a character- hell I probably would have hated him in high school- but he really makes the show fun. The one thing about the show that is hard to watch and yet entertaining is how much the old people are getting the tar beat out of them by the experience. It is exactly like a car accident- you can't look away.

And Survivor- I can't believe they let the tribe dwindle down- I love it! They can claim that this is the only time it has ever happened, but in truth it probably would have happened a couple of times in previous seasons but production always switched them up. I am totally hoping that Tom keeps staying on- mainly I admit due to his accent- but also because he kicks ass.

I went out to Falls Park for the first warm weather time yesterday- it was beautiful. Can't wait for summer.......

How far is White Castle from SF?

After a horrible winter storm this Thursday/Friday- I rented a couple of movies and got a pizza. I had gotten stuck in my parking lot before work and I managed to get stuck in the same place coming back from work- the first time I got out by myself and the second time I needed help. So then I got to unwind and watch Harold and Kumar go to White Castle and I loved it- perfect stupid comedy. I also realized I love Kumar. I about died during the weed montage.

Anyway at about 1:30 I decided to head to Brookings because I thought I was going to go out tonight. I get in my car to go and surprise I'm stuck- stupid fucking snow and crappy tires! But- I was so proud of myself I got out by myself- I got cardboard and managed to get myself free. Makes you feel like MaGyver...

I am doing some laundry and I'm going to head home- I spent the afternoon hanging out with my youngest niece. Something that has totally made me sick is the abduction and murder of the little girl Jessica. When they showed the pictures of her it looks just like my pictures of Taylor and it breaks my heart. I feel so bad for her grandparents.

Anyway now that I'm crying I'm going to go- I also rented 28 Days Later and this time I will will will watch it.

Blah Blah Blah....

Hello- I was desperately sick last weekend. I went home on Friday and knew I needed to go to the clinic- so I knew I really wasn't well. I thought I might have Influenza because I work in a germ factory and we had a child who had it. Turns out I didn't have it- thankfully- but I did have either bronchitis or walking pnuemonia and possibly sinus infection. He prescribed medication that fought the lot of it. I felt so miserable and more alone than I have felt in a long time. I had a temp of at least 102.4 (on a not very reliable thermometer) and I had terrible chills. All I had to comfort me was my cat. Anyway I finally feel like a person. I went to 'Finding Neverland' yesterday. You know you are really not 'into' a movie when all you can focus on are the actresses' hair and how Johnny Depp can possibly look so young at 40. I can't say that I didn't enjoy it or cry- I cry at Werther's commericals for god sake! It was a very short movie and I think that they could have filled out the characters a little more- I know that it is based on real people- but it is a movie- pretend that Barrie actually had an affair with the mother. Mainly I think I am just frustrated with all entertainment lately.

Gilmore Girls has been good- I would die for someone to come to my door and kiss me like Luke did- ahhh.... Anyway- I am dedicating next weekend to going out. Even if I don't want to- I will go out! I have massive amounts of laundry that I am dropping off at my parents- I have no energy to find and sit at a laundarmat (sorry for the spelling). I plan on going home before it gets too late.

I'm in a hurry, and don't know why.....

I hate when I feel so rushed and unsatisfied. Really I don't need to do everything and have everything work perfectly for me.... But why do the things I really want to work turn to shit? I'm just curious. The computer is doing alright today- but now the printer has broke down.

oh well- just up for the night- laundry, family, and I was maybe going to go out with friends- but that didn't happen. So now I'm sitting in the basement, freezing my ass off, and bored out of my mind.

On to talking about shows- I hadn't mentioned 'Project Runway'- but I became a fan of it about midway through. On Wednesday was the finale- and it was good. I really didn't care for Kara Saun or her designs- frankly I think she was just doing what her job currently is-- costume designing. I love Jay, not so much his final designs, but his personality was/is refreshing. Wendy Pepper- as 'vicious' and 'backstabbing' as everyone found her- I could relate to... I mean hello! it is a reality/contest show. Ever since the first Survivor people have been coming up with strategies for those things. I thought her designs were commercially good- and I don't think you should be belittled just because the clothes are well tailored. But hell- I don't know anything about fashion.

The Gilmore Girls are breaking my heart- in a good way- I hope that it continues to be good and that they don't string us along for too long. I sometimes think I should go on a chat room to talk about GG- but I like to feel that the show is made for just me. I don't want someone else's opinions ruining it for me. I would be a happy person if I could live in that show. It packs the right level of intelligence and wit. I really wish that I could start a course on the show- Gilmore 101- to guide the uneducated.

Survivor is eh- alright I guess- I think I am watching it out of habit still- but it can still hook me. I am looking forward to the new Amazing Race with Amber and Boston Rob- ummm- I can't wait for his accent to sink in.... I'm feeling all warm just thinking about it.

I picked up a Darwin Awards book at Goodwill and I absolutely loved it- I am really hoping the next one goes to Paris Hilton- at first she was just annoying- but I'm getting so sick of her- I just hope she doesn't procreate.

The Oscars are on tomorrow- and I can't cheer for anything really because my movie watching this year hasn't been so solid. I didn't want to see Ray or The Aviator. And I haven't gotten around to Sideways or Million Dollar Baby (which I'm not so certain I want to see). I do plan on going to 'Finding Neverland' this week- probably on Wednesday. I plan on crying my eyes out.

I was just about to publish this when I realized I forgot to talk about the BTK killer, who was arrested in Kansas. For the ones that haven't read about it yet- he was a Cub Scout leader. Well, hopefully he isn't gay, because they tend to frown on that (that is sarcasm and a bad joke). And with that I shall say goodnight.....

I am a snob

I hate explaining things that I think are common knowledge to everyone. I think that makes me a complete snob, but at the same time I work with 3 and 4 year olds everyday and when someone seems as clueless as them I get annoyed. Anyway- right now I am transferring my family's home videos to DVD. I am starting out with the ones from last year at Easter and I think they are so funny. How much difference a year makes. I can't wait until they are all on the DVD and I can take it home and watch when I miss them. I also have new footage from last weekend of Samantha walking about seven solo steps.

I am up for the weekend and I don't know why, but it is kind of nice. I am trying to forget about Monday and the shit holiday. I may type more tomorrow...

Promises get broken

I said I wasn't going to stay over another night- but alas!- I am. I woke up from my dream of me sitting at a table in a very fancy setting. My tablemates were Barbara Walters who was interviewing President George W. Bush and his wife Laura who was wearing the most unflattering shade of coral for lipstick. I was just telling her about it when my phone rang- to tell me my car was ready to pick up. I wonder where that dream would have gone? Anyway- I got up and ready and my mom drove me down- then we went over and picked up the youngest niece and got her a haircut. I got one too and I feel a little less sloppy with the hair. Anyway- I really didn't get anything accomplished today and I'm not getting anything done still. I watched Unfaithful on TNT with my mom today- and I promise I will never commit adultery (at least not like Diane Lane's character). Anyway- I'm still trying to figure out the camera software- no luck yet. I will be staying in SF next weekend though- so bye...

She Bop-a-He Bop Canadian style

I happened to glance at the Oddly Enough news tonight and saw this article about one Canadian man's 'Dancing in the Dark' http://story.news.yahoo.com/news?tmpl=story&ncid=757&e=1&u=/nm/20050128/od_nm/canada_indecency_dc

I guess when I masturbate I'm not standing up usually so I guess I can't get away with it- now the guy will forever be known as the guy who jerks off by his window.

I came up because I am finally going to get my car recall stuff fixed. I came up after work and as I walked into the house I see that my parents have just purchased a DVD recorder- what the fuck! Where are they getting all the money and why are they all of a sudden going gadget crazy? Anyway- I spent the majority of the night screaming at the computer because I installed my camera shit into it and it keeps making the computer shut down. I really do suck at all the fine details. I hope to not be here tomorrow night- I am definitely not going to sleep over another night. I haven't watched any movies recently so I really can't talk about that- although I have checked out 28 Days Later twice from the library and haven't watched it once. I was "sick" on Wednesday- aka I just didn't want to go to work- really bad. I may regret the decision later but I'm alright with it now.

Every time I hear a commercial for one of those speed date things or I see people doing it on TV- I feel physically sick. It is combining two stressful things for me- men and interviews. And then what if no one is interested- how crushing would it be to have no one pick you(aka me)? I don't handle rejection well at all- I want everyone to like me- at least as a friend. If I am still single at 33 maybe I'll try it..

I really must have adult ADHD- because the way I jump from thought to thought can't possibly be normal. I must get to sleep soon because I am tired- extremely tired.

Oh and if someone named Ned is reading this- I can't find your yahoo name anywhere or else I would talk to you

Blowing kisses

I had a lovely afternoon with my nieces- Samantha was a doll- totally happy and playful. I really needed that to restore my motive for coming to Brookings. I wish that I lived in the same town still- because I would love to watch her a lot. Anyway- I'm preparing to go back to Sioux Falls- I always leave with tons more stuff than I brought.

I have been watching with a little embarassment the VH1's 'I Love the 90s: Part Deux' and I just keep feeling strange about it. What are we going to do for these years comment on the comments we made? Live your life and then many years later you can look back- I think that is a big problem- we have to always make something out of nothing. Anyway- I can blab on like that but I know that I will still watch those shows. I think that has nipped a lot of fads in the bud- because they get made fun of fast.

I will be back next weekend because I need to have recall work done on my car- good old Lumina! So anyway- bye

Reality

I came up to Brookings this afternoon (Saturday that is) to do massive amounts of laundry and pretend that I will spend quality time with my family. I am more of a quantity than quality person. How can you compete with other distractions that happen on the weekend? I usually get to see the younger one for about two hours and the whole time her sister is trying to retain all the attention. It basically drives me crazy- but what are the alternatives? Not coming home to Brookings and never seeing them. Anyway- I did spend some good moments with my niece today- we played the Spongebob games I got her for X-mas. I just got done watching 'Jersey Girl' with my mom- it was alright for a Ben Affleck movie. Man- at one time in my life I really liked him!
My mom and Taylor came up on Sunday last weekend and I went to the Incredibles with Tay. Now that was a good movie- Pixar always does a good job.

I've been a total recluse lately- I like staying at my apartment. I know I need to just get out and go out and be young and single- but it is just so scary. My friend Rebekah mentioned someone her husband works for and if basically she could set me up on a date with him. It isn't that I wouldn't want to but I'm just so scared I'm like a deer in headlights. Twenty-seven is just such a scary age to be alone- I don't think I could handle that emotionally. All my other friends are either married or in relationships. Their stress is when to start having children- how strange! When did everyone grow up- I missed it! Sorry I'm just having weird PMS rants.

Just Like Old Times

I'm here- sitting in front of the computer- the only difference from last year is I am a year older and I have accumulated more shit. I guess I should do an overview of last year- I can sum it up in a couple of sentences. Vickie treated me like shit.I worked and I barely got to see my nieces, and I'm poor. There is the negative way to look at this last year. I think that there are some positives about last year-- for example- I lasted a whole year at my first job and my first solo apartment. I got a digital camera. My friend Rebekah got married. My family is healthy- so am I.

Anyway....
I went up to Rebekah and Jamie's for New Years. I had a great time talking and hanging out with them. We had our first winter storm this last week- I hate snow! I rented Garden State and Napoleon Dynamite- I liked them but not enough to buy them and rewatch them over and over. I love Zach Braff so I expected to love Garden State- oh well...
I have watched so many dang movies in the last couple of weeks that I am in a catatonic state. I do plan on watching 28 Days Later- um later on tonight.

There is some dialogue from Garden State that I liked- I was just talking to Rebekah about this same subject and he phrased pretty much how I feel.

Andrew: You know that point in your life when you realize the house you grew up in isn't really your home anymore. All of a sudden, even though you have some place where you put your shit, that idea of home is gone.

Sam: I still feel at home in my house.

Andrew: You'll see one day when you move out. Just sorta happens one day, and it's gone. You feel like you can never get it back. It's like you feel homesick for a place that doesn't even exist.
Maybe it's like this rite of passage, you know? You won't ever have that feeling again until you create a new idea of home for yourself. You know, for-- For your kids. For the family you start. It's like a cycle or something. I don't know. But I miss the idea of it, you know?
Maybe that's all family really is.
A group of people that miss the same imaginary place.

Sam: Maybe

It's simple but it captures how I feel lately- I was either living with my parents or in the same town- so these 'college' feelings are happening to me now. Anyway- I'm doing laundry.