Don't forget to 'Spring ahead'

Hello all!
It is so nice outside I don't know why I'm inside. Or why I'm in Brookings... But here I am. I just thought it was time to clean out my old room at my parents house. I have to go up and steam vac the carpet soon. I love to Spring clean- it just makes me feel good to get rid of the crap that accumlates in a house. My mom is a total pack rat- with everything- she doesn't get rid of old coupons and old magazines. I am going to come into this house when I am older and barely be able to walk if she doesn't get rid of shit. All right it isn't quite that bad- but it could become that way if she had her way. Anyway- I am so happy that Spring is here- I feel energized.
The only thing that sucks is that I really haven't met any new friends so I don't go out very much. I have employees where I work that ask me to go out but I don't really like mixing child care friends with my friend-friends. Maybe I am weird- but that is just me. So that is something that I am just kind of sad about...

I am excited about summer- I just wish that I could get tan again- but the only tan I will get is a farmer's tan. When I think about the amount of hours I wasted away last summer on my tan and computer I have a lot of feelings. I think that I could have been doing beneficial things- but I also needed that time to figure out me.

I also have a reason to feel friendless. I have a friend who always has 'used' me. I do a lot of listening with her- but we have been friends since we were five so I am used to it. Anyway a couple of weeks ago- she came up to SF and asked me to meet her for supper and to go out. Everytime she comes up she wants me to join her and her other friend and husband. I just want time with her alone sometimes- because I often feel fake when I am with them. Anyway- my friend is also having a friendship with a married man that just seems iffy to me. He is in Brookings and his wife lives in Iowa and my friend is spending a lot of time with him- supposedly just as friends. Anyway both I and her other friend say something about it at supper- that we are concerned, etc. On a phone conversation with her a couple of days later she tells me that she felt that I thought she was a slut versus her other friend who she only felt concern from. Anyway this was after I asked her if we could go out without the other friend sometime. She was just so short and snotty- that I just wanted to get off the phone. Anyway that was about three weeks ago and I haven't talked to her since. Yes, I realize that none of that makes sense. Short story- she has cut off her friendship because I was concerned about her and I want to spend time with her.

Damn, I had a lot to say today