PMS Hell!

I am just so sick of everyone right now- especially family members. And I don't even have the excuse that I see them all the time- I have only been home for roughly eight hours and I am already preparing to head home. I have a Hulk like rage right now- and really it is completely unreasonable that I should get this mad. I don't see anyone for at least a week- perhaps longer- and they are complete assholes or bitches or in the case of my nieces brats and a crying upset baby. I just don't get it- I wanted to go to a movie with my mom tonight and I have to be reminding her of the time constantly because she is always late- and I don't like being late. Well we get in the car and she starts bitching about me telling her that it was time to go- and states half way there that she just doesn't want to go with me to the movie- but keeps driving. I wasn't going to apologize for anything so I said fine and said I don't want to go either. But she keeps driving to the theatre- and I said that I would have someone come pick me up because I didn't want to go with her and ruin a possible good movie. So she came home- I don't know what she was expecting- because it used to work(??) when I was a child to threaten to take something away but I'm an adult and I don't have to put up with her bullshit. My mother needs serious help.

I am well aware that the whole paragraph probably makes no sense to anyone but myself- sorry- but I had to get that out. I might sound a little immature and I am- but I just had to get that out. I am just at the breaking point where I want to cry but I just can't.

Other than today life has been great- probably won't be up to Brookings and thus my computer for a while. Maybe half a month or more? So take care and for all my friends- call me- I'm lonely

Where Do I Begin?

I haven't been on the internet for almost two weeks- sad for a person who used to log in practically all day/everyday in the summer. I went out last night with my friend Vickie and a co-worker of hers. I was in the party mood- but unfortunately they weren't. So they stayed out till about 12:30 and then I wandered by myself for an hour. I am nursing a slight hangover. So my night started going to Vickie's apartment and having a drink and then we went to Ray's Corner and I had a beer. While I was drinking my beer I was suddenly assaulted- well at least that's how I view it. Some old drunk man was talking to Vickie because she works there and he is a regular. All of a sudden Vickie tells the man that he works with my mother and tells him her name. Well then this guy starts telling me how ditzy my mom is and that she doesn't have a clue about anything. I did my best to ignore him and Vickie tried to change the subject- but this guy kept talking. I was really surprised that I didn't go off on the guy. Mainly it made me appreciate what my mom has to put up with every day at work- which I wouldn't put up with- I would file fucking charges if my supervisor told me how stupid I am over and over- stupid fucking alcoholic asshole!! So anyhoo it was a very fun beginning to my night.

Then we headed down to Skinners and had a couple of beers- and there was this lady. Bleached hair and a lot of make-up- she had to have been over 35. Well my party was having a conversation about sex and this woman pulls up a chair and starts talking to us. Or sluring is more like it. She grabs some popcorn and shoves some in her mouth and throws some at some people that were sitting next to her. Anyway in the next minutes after that- she proceeded to pet Vickie's hair, flash us her bare tiny breast, and dive her hand down Vickie's co-workers shirt trying to expose her breast. We made a break for it when she went to the bathroom and headed to Chevy's. It was dead there but they had drinks for a dollar so who could complain? Well we were there for about a half an hour when the lady appeared. She was so out of it- she was trying to flirt with all these guys and later we saw her out on the dance floor with some guy. Anyway the next time I saw her the guy she was dancing with was gathering her and her stuff up to leave and it just looked so wrong to me. So wrong that I had to interrupt, well it turns out the guy was trying to just take her home to let her pass out. And another guy took over for him- and I made him swear that he was an upstanding guy. Anyway- I just hope that woman made it home safe- I hate being a mother hen- most people would just turn the other way. I can't. So anyway- the night was fun. I got a rose. I felt young. And I didn't spend that much money.

So anyway- I haven't been talking for a while- lots of things have happened in life and on tv. Janet Jackson showed her breast, three people have left Survivor, I've missed three episodes of America's Next Top Model- mainly because I forget that it might be on KELO after the news every time. My brother got fired from another job, and I just got to inform my parents that he spends all day searching the net for porn not job opportunities ( I mean who saves sites on your parent's computer- really!!). Anyway life has gone on.

Before I go I need to include this article link about Movieoke - it sounds and looks so fun- basically like Rocky Horror Picture Show- but with all movies.

Take care

I'm not taking any more applications at the present time

Wow! Haven't been drunk and on here in quite a while. After I wrote the last entry I basically passed out in a sleeping bag on my parent's living room floor. I can't wait to go home I miss my nice apartment. It is strange that I view my parents' house with a little contempt when I just moved out. But you really see their faults a lot clearer. Is it just a matter of time before my place becomes dingy and messy? Maybe if I had children or a boyfriend even it will. Single life really is pretty fun- I can do whatever I want to do all the time. I can baby talk to my cat and not have anybody think I'm weird. I can walk around naked and not try to look good doing it. I will always be sure that the food in the fridge that I wanted is still there. The list could go on and on... I just don't think I am made out to be that way for the rest of my life though.

Well anyway on to the television programs.... The one show I was looking forward to the most this week was America's Next Top Model on UPN- and man was I pissed off that it wasn't on. I was informed by some guy on an offline message that it will be on Keloland after the news? I hope so because I want to see it- hell I don't even know who got kicked off this last week- more than likely it was Chandi (god she was awful). My favorite show will be on in a couple of hours- All Star Survivor! It should be a good show. I am finishing up my laundry (hey! it's free!) and then I get to go home.

Plus I would just like to add how much winter sucks. Stop snowing!!

Drunkenness

I am not used to being drunk at all anymore. I love losing all my inhabitions- in fact I wish I was wasted so I would have the excuse of being so and doing incredibly stupid things.I could have made out with some cute college guys tonight but instead I am here talking shit to a computer about how drunk I am. I just want to start having sex is that so wrong? I have gone over 25 years not having it- so when is my turn coming huh??? I just want to meet a good guy and do it- even if I don't see myself marrying him.
So if anyone just wants to meet a good girl and fuck you can leave me application.