Wow- I am such a bitch!

Have you ever reached a point in your life where you just don't care who you piss off? Well I have reached it and gone a mile beyond. I am constantly coming down to Brookings to see my relatives and no one ever comes up to see me. I almost lose my job, does anyone come up- no. I cry about how lonely I am, does anyone come up- no again. I get an award from work and am really excited about it- still no one. I'm bitching and yes I am fully aware of it. The same comment from everyone in my family is - 'When I have some money I'm going to come up and shop.'- um hello I don't come to Brookings for the vast opportunities to spend money I come up to see you shitheads. As a punishment/encouragement for my older niece her parents have decided that she wasn't going to have any sleepovers in Sioux Falls until she read all her required reading. It is basically my punishment- because I really enjoy doing things in Sioux Falls with my niece. Plus- maybe a better punishment would be to take her TV and DVD player out of her room - wouldn't that make more sense- but of course that would be taking away the 'babysitter'. Anyway- I am in my 'kick you in the balls' stage of PMS. Every little thing is making me want to scream. I always tell my cat she is lucky she doesn't have to deal with her family. Okay that sounds crazy- but she is often the only thing to talk to other than myself. Wow- I am so lonely.

Gilmore Girls made me almost puke this last Tuesday- Rory is the biggest cock tease ever- I am really not liking her this season. The writers are totally letting me down- I hope they can pull it together. Survivor is on, and yes I am watching it. Terry is as close to perfect as possible- perfect being Tom from last season. I am totally into the masculine powers he possesses. Rrrr! There are currently three shows I try not to miss- those first two and Lost- in other words I have Monday, Friday, and the weekend to possibly do things.

Another thing that I have recently enjoyed is finally biting the bullet and getting a library card from SF. I was convinced that it would be too hard to find somewhere to park or that I would get a parking ticket that I hadn't got one. Now I will be there all the time- because for me shopping and checking out books is really similar action to me. It feeds me desire to gather shit without making me really really poor- and I don't have all the clutter. When I get the urge to buy I'm going to go to the library- I promise!

I went to a couple of movies at the 3 dollar theatre recently- Brokeback Mountain and Rumor Has It. Both were disappointments- I was convinced that I would like the first, but I didn't. Heath's emotions weren't believable to me. Plus, I couldn't help think about the first time they make um (definitely not love) lets say lust -and that the first time a guy fucks me up the butt I would hope that it would involve a passionate kiss first- but that's just me. I just didn't leave the movie feeling touched which according to the ads I was supposed to feel. Rumor Has It was like I thought it would be- I don't really like Aniston or Costner- and the story line that a girl goes after the man who she thinks could have possibly been her father and then sleeps with him after taking his word that he is sterile- it was damn disgusting. But Mark Ruffalo was in it so what could I do? There wasn't near enough of him in it though. I am heading back to SF tonight and I plan on going to a movie tomorrow night- a couple came that I was curious about- basically all of them are frightening.

Anyway- I got to bitch about people anonymously and now I feel better. Thanks.