On the road again

Being home for roughly 23 hours is enough- I just wish that I had a computer or enough money to buy one- because it seems that lately that is my main reason for coming home. I should mention that every time I go on and check out my mail and other things I am always disappointed- I seem to be waiting for something, but I really don't know what. That is pretty much my state lately. It reminds me of my childhood routine of playing Barbies- I would comb and style their hair, pick out their outfits, plan what they were going to do, build their environment, and then when it came to playing with the Barbies I was usually done. It seems that my life is all preparation and no playing. I have make-up and some clothes, and various other 'essentials', I have so much in my life but it is all above the surface- I don't have any close friends anymore or any signs of a love life, the main person who I receive phone calls from is my mother- and I live with a cat!

Wow! Didn't think I would be so honest with myself- because face it that is the only person who reads this- me! I think I might make today a pity party- I'm already off to a good start.

Have a good week