Summary of 2003

I thought I would do a review of my last year. I didn't start doing this blog until what August- and yet I have a good amount of entries. The people that read this have no idea what I have done in the last year- hell even my friends don't. Last year at this time I was deeply depressed- and I mean deeply. How can one year seem so long and so short all at the same time. If I had to make a checklist of highs and lows it would include:

*The engagement and marriage of my college friend- it was both high and low. Low because I didn't know what to think about the guy (still don't) and high because I had a great time at the wedding. Low because the wedding party invitation made this depressed body concious girl crazy and sick with dread, high because I really looked great at the wedding and felt great (probably the best three days of this year).

*Finding walking and then losing walking again- I had nothing to do all summer but tan and walk- it was wonderful. Unfortunately when I started my job- my comute and the season change made me stop doing it- which makes me sick thinking about it and flabby because of it.

*Messaging- I went on due to sheer boredom and that night met a really great person- who just happened to be a guy. It was a great couple of months- I felt so happy every time I talked to him- and then we met in person which was so comfortable the first time and so akward the second. I was so devastated when he didn't talk to me. I felt like a fool- a complete idiot. I look back at myself in August and September and I remember typing it, but I really have a hard time recalling the feeling. Life is way too short to just be waiting for someone or something.

*The birth of my niece- she's so cute and a really good baby. I am sure that I can maintain a great relationship with my second niece. I am so grateful that she is healthy and happy- and I just hope that she stays that way- at least until she's a teenager.

*The Iraq War- Depression and major upset in our country did not bode well for me. I just couldn't understand what was happening. One of the worst days of my year was when I was watching the Emmy's and Michael Moore made his speech- at that point I was so confused with emotions that I just lost it- and covered my head and cried. My parent's are pretty staunch Republicans so having my father question the move made me so shaken. And I would like to add that seeing a protest from the 60s on video is quite different than seeing one in modern day on CNN.

*My new job and the move- Thinking that if I had just done what I had planned and 'missed' my interview, what my life would be like now. I spent the majority of last year fooling not only my parents but myself that I was looking for a job. It wasn't because of being lazy, it was about being scared to death of life. I'm a cold feet type of girl- right before something big is going to happen to me- I'm ready to run and frozen in the spotlight at the same time. But it has worked out for me this last year. I've done a lot of things that scared me and I'm still alive.

*Chicago- and all that jazz- This year in entertainment is a highlight- because frankly that is what I am all about. I loved Chicago and Finding Nemo. I liked Love, Actually, and a handful of other movies. I read the Harry Potter book and some chick-lit books this year. I was a TV junkie- with tons of reality shows being my favorite (they always have- I'm a early Real World fan). Survivor was great, so was Amazing Race, and American Idol. But this year featured a lot of flash in the pan shows. I fell in lust with Sex and the City.

*The big 2-5. I am a quarter century old. It was a good birthday though. It was one of the first birthdays since I turned 20 that didn''t involve me crying.

Anyway- I wish you a Happy New Year