Bawling like a baby

I just got done watching the final episode of Six Feet Under and bawled like crazy. I just lost it during the last couple of minutes when they were showing how and when the main characters died. The thing that made me the most depressed was the fact that Claire only married the Ted guy when she was in her 40s or later. It just reminded me of when I was bemoaning the fact that I'm never going to get married and a stranger chimes in that she knows someone who is 50 and just fell in love. I don't want to wait until I'm in my later life. I would like the option of having a child, thank you! I don't know why I watched it now I'm all depressed. I think it was supposed to make you feel better by showing that they all (for the most part) lived long lives. This is why I should not watch any new shows- I get too emotionally invested. Now I am thinking about my own family and death- it's a whole vicious cycle.

I should erase all of that sadness with mocking stupid rich white girls. I am currently taping the Hills finale afterparty so I need to watch the show and then yell at the screen at the vapidness that is MTV reality. I'm secretly addicted to it- not so much Laguna Beach- just The Hills? Anyway- I really should get ready for bed- night