Man- I hate that

I had a huge entry all typed up, but this computer wouldn't let me publish it or save it. Probably because I swore? Anyway- it was about moving my furniture in my apartment (I constantly rearrange- it's sick I need help), having my nieces up for a sleepover(it was fun, but short), and being the errand girl in Sioux Falls for my family members in Brookings (car trouble-not mine- but it became mine). That is the short way of saying everything that I said in my last post.
Bye

Mission Impossible?

I might as well admit it- I went to Mission Impossible III last weekend- and it wasn't half bad. My niece came up Saturday and we went to the double feature of Over the Hedge and the formerly mentioned movie. They were both good movies- my niece really liked Mission Impossible and it almost made me forget crazy Cruise real life shit. Anyway- it was nice enjoying summer activities- I can't believe it is time for summer! I am at the library and it is going to storm big and bad very soon- so I better get going. But first I have to talk about something sad that happened at work today- well it actually started yesterday- a child's mother died of a brain aneurysm that she suffered while she was at work. The girl isn't in my room- but it was so sad- I am praying and thinking about her and her family. I couldn't imagine losing my mother when I was a little girl- that would be so hard.

Going to a Bachelorette party for an acquaintance

Last night I went out with girls who all probably four years younger than myself for a former co-worker's bachelorette party. I got roped into it somehow- and it started out really fun I played the happy go lucky person that I can be. I was really happy until I got insulted from a guy somewhere out of left park. I am a big girl I am not going to pretend I'm not- I don't think that I would be as funny or nice if I wasn't and on the other hand I can be a downright bitch. The situation was that I went outside to talk to my friend on my cell phone and I put my purse down on the table and there was a group of guys nearby. Before I could sit down one guy says 'Don't sit there." I said I wasn't going to and before I can say anything else he says, 'I wasn't worried about you taking someone's spot, I was worried about the chair.' A group of about 5 guys with him kind of make sounds like they can't believe he said something like that, but they didn't say anything. So that pretty much put the end to my night of fun. It just sucks- I am really nice and I can't hide my feelings at all. So did I just turn around and ignore him? Yes and no- I let him know he was an asshole, but I let the tears flow while I talked to my friend on the cell phone. I tried to not let the other people focus on that- but they saw my face after I went back in and the story spilled out. Last night was just a reminder of why I don't like to go out to bars- because people are complete assholes. I would rather be overweight and alone than skinny and in a shitty relationship with an ignorant frat boy. I really don't know why I am putting this in here- but I am so be it.

New Haircut

I got a new do- it is short and layered and I like it so far. It cut off all the black- well almost all of it. I feel like a new woman. I went home to Brookings yesterday and did some fast bonding with the nieces. We hung out at Lyons Park and had fun.

I went out and got Mucinex because I am struggling to breath lately with all the junk in my lungs. Is that how other people get started on medications- they watch a commerical featuring cartoon images of disgusting health problems??

Anyway- Gilmore Girls is still pissing me off- Survivor is still rocking- and LOST is I mean-- hello- who wasn't talking to the TV telling Ana Lucia to not give the gun to Michael ( I know I was). They got rid of both of the drunk drivers in a dramatic way though, huh? Of course we don't know that they are both dead yet- but a gun shot in the stomach is a pretty unrecoverable wound.

Okay- I have another reason not to have children- I watched the movie 'Thirteen' a couple of days ago and I never want to have a teenager- ever. Basically it is one notch above 'Kids' as far as disgusting. But not far below. I would put my child in a bubble before I let them hang out with girls like those.

Anyway- goodbye- talk later

I have a new love in my life

is it sad that it is a library? I am at Oak View or is it Oak Ridge Library? Either way I love it- it feels like my own personal library, at least in comparison to the Main Branch. I will probably spend the majority of my library time here. It is really nice- I know I shouldn't talk about how nice it is and if anything I shouldn't mention it at all, but that would be selfish. And I am very very giving. Imagine going into Barnes and Noble and being able to get a lot of books without paying- that is how it feels here- because the books and movies and everything are so shiny and new.

Just thought I would do a quick note while I was here
Bye

The Myth of Me and You

I read this book last week (the title) it is by Leah Stewart and it is a novel about a woman's journey to find an old friend that she had abandoned years before. I had seen reviews about it and had planned on reading it, I think I was half believing that it would offer some insight into my friend betrayal that occurred about two years ago. The thing I realizied though when I was half through it is that I don't feel as strongly about it as I did- that pain has healed a lot. There is still scar tissue, but I don't wake up every morning feeling the pain. The only thing that I really could appreciate from the book is that I am not alone at grieving the loss of a friendship- in many ways it is worse than a romantic break-up. Since I have read the book I have had Vickie in dreams of mine- and they mimic real life. Anyway- I think she is living at home with her parents again- did I mention she was my neighbor all my life? Maybe people realizied what a bitch she was and dumped or fired her. Okay that was mean- I know, I know! I'll stop...

Now I am reading Shopaholic and Sister, mainly because I read the other three and I don't like to not finish a series. Those books always make me want to slap the shit out of the Becky Bloomwood because she's an idiot and at the same time I totally see myself in her actions.

Okay- I really don't know where I am going with this entry, but I better get to sleep it was a long long day at work

I'll leave you with one word of caution before I part- Only watch 'She's the Man' if you have a couple of hours to waste, absolutely nothing to do, and it's free. Otherwise see 'Just One of the Guys' (that is the title I think?) it was done better, that and it's an 80's movie which can't be beat!

Wow- I am such a bitch!

Have you ever reached a point in your life where you just don't care who you piss off? Well I have reached it and gone a mile beyond. I am constantly coming down to Brookings to see my relatives and no one ever comes up to see me. I almost lose my job, does anyone come up- no. I cry about how lonely I am, does anyone come up- no again. I get an award from work and am really excited about it- still no one. I'm bitching and yes I am fully aware of it. The same comment from everyone in my family is - 'When I have some money I'm going to come up and shop.'- um hello I don't come to Brookings for the vast opportunities to spend money I come up to see you shitheads. As a punishment/encouragement for my older niece her parents have decided that she wasn't going to have any sleepovers in Sioux Falls until she read all her required reading. It is basically my punishment- because I really enjoy doing things in Sioux Falls with my niece. Plus- maybe a better punishment would be to take her TV and DVD player out of her room - wouldn't that make more sense- but of course that would be taking away the 'babysitter'. Anyway- I am in my 'kick you in the balls' stage of PMS. Every little thing is making me want to scream. I always tell my cat she is lucky she doesn't have to deal with her family. Okay that sounds crazy- but she is often the only thing to talk to other than myself. Wow- I am so lonely.

Gilmore Girls made me almost puke this last Tuesday- Rory is the biggest cock tease ever- I am really not liking her this season. The writers are totally letting me down- I hope they can pull it together. Survivor is on, and yes I am watching it. Terry is as close to perfect as possible- perfect being Tom from last season. I am totally into the masculine powers he possesses. Rrrr! There are currently three shows I try not to miss- those first two and Lost- in other words I have Monday, Friday, and the weekend to possibly do things.

Another thing that I have recently enjoyed is finally biting the bullet and getting a library card from SF. I was convinced that it would be too hard to find somewhere to park or that I would get a parking ticket that I hadn't got one. Now I will be there all the time- because for me shopping and checking out books is really similar action to me. It feeds me desire to gather shit without making me really really poor- and I don't have all the clutter. When I get the urge to buy I'm going to go to the library- I promise!

I went to a couple of movies at the 3 dollar theatre recently- Brokeback Mountain and Rumor Has It. Both were disappointments- I was convinced that I would like the first, but I didn't. Heath's emotions weren't believable to me. Plus, I couldn't help think about the first time they make um (definitely not love) lets say lust -and that the first time a guy fucks me up the butt I would hope that it would involve a passionate kiss first- but that's just me. I just didn't leave the movie feeling touched which according to the ads I was supposed to feel. Rumor Has It was like I thought it would be- I don't really like Aniston or Costner- and the story line that a girl goes after the man who she thinks could have possibly been her father and then sleeps with him after taking his word that he is sterile- it was damn disgusting. But Mark Ruffalo was in it so what could I do? There wasn't near enough of him in it though. I am heading back to SF tonight and I plan on going to a movie tomorrow night- a couple came that I was curious about- basically all of them are frightening.

Anyway- I got to bitch about people anonymously and now I feel better. Thanks.